Frustrations and warmed by generosity

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I’m sure I’m not the only one for whom this image is a good depiction of when you are trying to just do a “normal” food shop at the moment. Not to stockpile or panic buy. Just to do a normal food shop.

For us, it hasn’t even been to do our main food shop – which is normally twice a month. This has just been as a result of trying to do a top-up shop and also to try and place my normal monthly online shop for delivery next week! As a result of stockpiling and panic buying, we have been struggling to purchase the bare essentials for our children to eat. What’s worse, is that these are mainly specialised foods – non-mainstream long-life milk, special flour, gluten-free bread. Free from chicken nuggets?! I know that there are others with allergies needing food, but we all shop normally and we always can buy what we need. For the shelves to be empty of these products it either means those with allergies are stockpiling, which from what I’ve seen in discussion groups is unlikely, or those without allergies are now buying the free-from products.

For us, this is not a case of we like to buy the more expensive, free-from options. These are the only foods we can buy without our young children getting really ill. And I know we are not the only ones who have been affected by this. There are friends around the country saying that they are struggling to buy the free-from products they or their children use.

But the flip side of this is we have seen a huge outpouring of love from friends and family as they try to help us source the food and milk we need. We have had deliveries just appear on our doorstep. Friends and family near and far stepping up to offer help. We are so grateful.

The other element we are having to face at the moment is a little boy who thrives on routine and his normality is having his “world” turned upside down. We all know these are for good reasons, but for children with various additional needs, these changes are causing huge problems. I know friends who are having to go into isolation with their children for 12 weeks as it’s for one of the family member’s best interests. I have several friends that this virus for them or a family member would likely be fatal. So we know these measures are necessary. However, for some of us, it is harder than others.

For us, this has meant we needed to set up a Lego play space for our little boy. As I have mentioned before, lego is the one activity that calms him and helps him focus. But with him sharing a bedroom with his 15-month-old sister, this is tricky. So for now, she will only go in their room for sleeping. We will keep her out of the room the rest of the time, as she is still frequently putting things in her mouth. This isn’t ideal, but we’re having to make things work.

I’m investigating online toddler group and activity sessions with songs etc so that we can watch to keep him engaging with others. Life is going to be a strict learning curve for sure.

I’m just asking that people moving forward stop and think about what they are doing, saying and sharing. Keep to the government facts. Stop and think, do you really need to keep an online shopping slot reserved every week for the next month? Do you have a neighbour that needs help? What can you do to make life easier for others?

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Small things that can do lots of damage

Yes I’m talking about words. What you speak can do so much damage. And the damage can last much longer than you ever realise. Knowing I’ve upset or hurt someone with my words intentionally or not plagues my mind for days. Similarly being hurt by the words of friends can take weeks or even months to go away. Or even if you think the hurt has gone, it doesn’t take much to resurrect it.

I know that there are times currently where I can be more sensitive to what people say, but I also know my closest friends are aware of this. But that hasn’t stopped people saying things without thinking. Little comments about how my children are dressed, or a mark on their faces or that I’ve not wiped their nose instantly could all upset me. It left me, and still can leave me, feeling judged.

But I’ve also witnessed how social media especially means words can be really damaging. I’ll never forget how it felt when I was single but desperately wanted not to be, and I had friend after friend posting they were “in a relationship with” or “engaged to”. And while I was happy for them, it could be hard to read.

Pregnancy announcements could be the same. Knowing how others could be hurting because of their own situations that you or I are not aware of made me be very cautious. And again while I will celebrate with friends in their joy, it doesn’t take away the pain. This pain, hurt, jealousy, etc isn’t new, but before social media it was easier to manage. You can only control to a point what you can see when you log in.

I do share on social media, but I choose who I share things with. Not everyone can see everything I post and that’s my choice. I choose who sees lots of images of my children. I choose who can see my blog post notifications. I choose what I post generally. And I carry the responsibility for those choices.