Frustrations and warmed by generosity

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I’m sure I’m not the only one for whom this image is a good depiction of when you are trying to just do a “normal” food shop at the moment. Not to stockpile or panic buy. Just to do a normal food shop.

For us, it hasn’t even been to do our main food shop – which is normally twice a month. This has just been as a result of trying to do a top-up shop and also to try and place my normal monthly online shop for delivery next week! As a result of stockpiling and panic buying, we have been struggling to purchase the bare essentials for our children to eat. What’s worse, is that these are mainly specialised foods – non-mainstream long-life milk, special flour, gluten-free bread. Free from chicken nuggets?! I know that there are others with allergies needing food, but we all shop normally and we always can buy what we need. For the shelves to be empty of these products it either means those with allergies are stockpiling, which from what I’ve seen in discussion groups is unlikely, or those without allergies are now buying the free-from products.

For us, this is not a case of we like to buy the more expensive, free-from options. These are the only foods we can buy without our young children getting really ill. And I know we are not the only ones who have been affected by this. There are friends around the country saying that they are struggling to buy the free-from products they or their children use.

But the flip side of this is we have seen a huge outpouring of love from friends and family as they try to help us source the food and milk we need. We have had deliveries just appear on our doorstep. Friends and family near and far stepping up to offer help. We are so grateful.

The other element we are having to face at the moment is a little boy who thrives on routine and his normality is having his “world” turned upside down. We all know these are for good reasons, but for children with various additional needs, these changes are causing huge problems. I know friends who are having to go into isolation with their children for 12 weeks as it’s for one of the family member’s best interests. I have several friends that this virus for them or a family member would likely be fatal. So we know these measures are necessary. However, for some of us, it is harder than others.

For us, this has meant we needed to set up a Lego play space for our little boy. As I have mentioned before, lego is the one activity that calms him and helps him focus. But with him sharing a bedroom with his 15-month-old sister, this is tricky. So for now, she will only go in their room for sleeping. We will keep her out of the room the rest of the time, as she is still frequently putting things in her mouth. This isn’t ideal, but we’re having to make things work.

I’m investigating online toddler group and activity sessions with songs etc so that we can watch to keep him engaging with others. Life is going to be a strict learning curve for sure.

I’m just asking that people moving forward stop and think about what they are doing, saying and sharing. Keep to the government facts. Stop and think, do you really need to keep an online shopping slot reserved every week for the next month? Do you have a neighbour that needs help? What can you do to make life easier for others?

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Realising some people don’t have a clue!

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One of the things I have had to do in recent weeks and months is learn that it is ok to put up barriers and set boundaries. This is actually healthy. I’m also learning how much I need to value and respect myself and my time. This has meant I also now know that my friends should be respecting and valuing me in the same way, and they should be placing a level of value on my time.

Sadly I have also realised that some people don’t do this. I know that all people are fallible. I know that we all make mistakes. I’m certainly not saying that I don’t make mistakes or upset people. But I have realised that trust and respect come hand in hand, and both have to be earned and maintained. Once it is tossed away, the damage can be irreparable.

My priorities have to be my faith, my family and myself. My self care includes making sure I surround myself with those who are building me up and not knocking me down. This doesn’t mean only surrounding myself with people in positive happy moods – in fact, I have been able to be a support to others while working through things for myself. And knowing I can be, really does help. But what it does mean is making sure that those who are in my life add value in one way or another.

For example, I have an amazing network of support that I have talked about before, thanks to a group of mums I met online who all gave birth at the same time as me. They are there pretty much 24/7. They know me so well and can build me up on my down days, celebrate with me on the good days, and make me laugh most days! The time I invest in them is so valuable to me and I know they are there.

But I have also learnt that some physical friendships are more one sided. I have learnt that my expectations of people and their commitment to time and relationship building can be different to the other person. And because of the loyal person I am, I have ignored this, but I didn’t realise the damage that this was doing. So I am now trying to be selfish in someways and say this isn’t healthy for me.

People say “talk it through with them” or “they may not know what they are doing”, and I totally understand that this is often true, but  the place I am in at the moment means I don’t have the energy for the confrontation or the emotional space for it.

I know this post could be seen as “controversial” or stirring the pot, but as ever my blog is honest and where I am at. I won’t be answering people who ask “Is it me?” in response to this, as actually that will show how little they have taken in.

Life is a cycle of seasons. And friendships can move in those seasons, and that is 100% ok.

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